Its Time to Get Up and Learn

Its 52nd Malaysia birthday..happy Merdeka day to all Malaysian..proud to be Malaysian yeah!

Now its time for me to get up and learn..

No more playing..be more serious..

Only left a month before I'm leaving my old job and start a new life

Yes Yes..I'm preparing myself to accept the challenge....

I'l b back to KL tonite..my friend will drive my car and I just sit beside him and talk to him to make sure he's not sleeping while drivingggg....

good bye Penang..

I'll see you in a month (Insyaallah)

xoxo
sephiiroth

Finally..Its Official

Tahniah ! Anda telah berjaya dan surat tawaran akan dikeluarkan oleh Kementerian/Jabatan berkenaan.Kementerian/Jabatan : KEMENTERIAN KESIHATAN MALAYSIA, BHG. SUMBER MANUSIA, ARAS 9 & 10, BLOK E7, PARCEL E, PUSAT PENT. KERAJAAN PERSEKUTUAN

I'm gonna cry...cry me a river..

I love CRC, I love everyone's here, I love CORFIS Team..

Thanks GOD for giving me the chances..
Thanks GOD for giving me the light..
Thanks GOD for giving me strenght

Thank you all my friends..Hillparkians..Nita, Lisa,Bai,Dyana,Ila
Thank you my CRC's friends..Akma, Epi,Yati,Hidayah,Fairuz and Mira

I'm gonna miss them..

I'm cryin again....

xoxo
sephiiroth

Penang is calling ME

Relax...take a deep breath..
Hating this kind of feeling..nervous..not knowing what will happen in your life..
Yes, I am nervous to know the result..seriously feel like a pregnant lady waiting for the baby to come out..counting the days..

Friends,
My SPA result is coming out tomorrow officially! I knew that I have informed all of u that I got the job as Science Officer MOH..but this one is unofficial OK!So that is why I am worried to wait the official one from the SPA website tomorrow..yeah tomorrow I'm on leave..Penang is calling me for balik kg to celebrate fasting month with family...

Talked to Dan (my PM) secretly in Skype yesterday..told her about this unofficial result and I cried when she got a lots thing to say..asked me to face to face conversation rather than Skype..like wana hug me and said "U did it Sya and Congratulation"...hahaha..and guess what??She proposed me to be working with her in 3 years in come after their company is stable..they really want me to come back and work with them..they will give me special offer later..and I said "I can't guarantee my life my future to you in 3 years, but I promised I wont forget you and ur company will be 1st in my list if let say I feel bored working in goverment sector"..then she smile

I dreamed last nite..its all about my future wanabe..
OK..fuhhh my plan is going back to Penang and serve my hometown..
I've never been living with family since 15 years old..its time to come back and explore my own place..Can't imagine if I got the chances to stay at home..its weird for me..cos I am independent girl..hahaha
I'm gonna miss all my frens here in KL..wawa..dunno what to say..I've been living here for almost 6 years...

xoxo
sephiiroth

Positive Thinker

Selepas separuh buku The Difference Maker by John C Maxwell aku bace, agak 70% aku berubah ke positive thinker..bukan senang nak berubah but the truth is my attitude penentu segalanya..

Weekend yg bagus..On Saturday, met Mun and Mai at the Jusco Equine, planned to go to Keon's niece birthday..hampir setahun aku x penah jumpe family Keon dan agak teruja memandangkan family die sangat sporting dan orang yang paling rapat sms aku blajar di matrik perak..Sampai je trus sesi peluk cium bersama family die dan Maksu tegur aku dah bulat..hahaha..sabar je la..setahun x jumpe anything can change rite..Adehh sebenarnye sedih bile dgr..but promised to be positive thinker so terima dan telan je la..hahaha

On Sunday, ajak Leeya watched movie and played bowling..so destinasi Cineleisure..not really happening but itu la yg best..x rmai orang so senang skit..they have some concert for F&N dance challenge..so budak2 skolah je ramai..Something happened, I have met Linie, my best fren who was a Doctor still studied final year in Russia..wawa..die pon tegur aku dah bulat..cmne nihhhh..sedapnye die peluk cium aku..dah mcm teddy bear katenye..siot betulllll..

Ok semalam dah abiskan a few chapter of tht book, so semangat datang keje nak abiskan tasks yang berlambak..before this agak seteress ngn perangai Dr sume ..but now as a positive thinker, itu sume cabaran..kalu aku layan baik sgt and just follow the flow, maknenye lambat lagi la projek nak siap..so aku yg harus berubah dan pantas bertindak..asik nak komen je smpai bile pun x bole siap kan..siap sume Dr, aku suke email korang as a reminder suh wat keje..

Chaiyoooo..Monday yg bagussssss...
Prepare the materials for the roadshows on Wed, Thurs, Fri and Sat..
See...Sat pun kene keje dan walaupun berpose..aku harus anggap as a challenge..is it???

xoxo
sephiiroth

Seteressss

Oh busannye arini..walaupun name Jumaat tapi ntah kenape aku rs sgt busan..bukan xde keje bahkan sejak semalam lps PM dah hand over sume tugas kpd aku, kepala aku dah berpusing2 dah..

Sampai je ofis, as usual aku akan list down job yg harus aku selesaikan hari ni..byk jugak tasks nye tapi aku hanye berjaye siapkan 3 je out of 7..nape ye..kepala dah berat nih..aku dah mati kutu nak siapkan assignment ..ini semua disebabkan setiap assignment berkaitan ngn org atasan..so aku harus tunggu green lite before proceed to the next step..

Dah abis pusing kepala pikir pasal Urine Protein dipstick tu..aku betul2 x paham ngn PM aku..aku dah explain the impact kalau die nak juga proceed dgn test tu..alamatnye bnyk mende kene ubah cos dah lari dr planning awal..starting ngn CDMS system, then Clinipath services pun kene ubah system..banyak mende terlibat disebabkan protein test tu..yg aku pelik cmne la dorang leh pulak implement mende ni before betul2 plan the real one..ni projek dah jalan separuh, nak tambah2 lab test lak..susah la cmniiiii!!!dan aku lak yang kene selesaikan..nak tak nak, takut nak mati aku hantar email berterus terang yang aku mmg tahap confius gile baban kepada Pakar Ginjal Dr Ong Loke Meng, GH Penang..aku tau die tgh outstation sebulan..tapi aku betul2 da sakit kepala nak yakinkan PM aku supaya cancelkan protein test and just follow the protocol..Bersyukur yg amat, Dr Ong reply email aku within 1 hour..punye la berjela explaination die dan for the first time aku rs suke dan happy yang amat bekerjasama dgn Specialist..dan aku rs dah mcm Dr ginjal lak aku..for past 1 month aku mengerjekan case report tuk kidney part..akhirnya aku rs puas hati bile ape yg aku penat2 blajar dan bace membuahkan hasil dan paling best pendapat aku diterima baik Dr Ong dan disokong..so kefahaman aku adalah betul..siap ko PM, aku dah cakap x payah wat..sighh

Skang ni concentrate on Diabetic Foot lak..ni satu kes lagi..mane la Dr Orthopedik yang nak tolong aku ni..aku mmg x paham bab2 kaki ni..yg aku slalu dgr gangren..aku tau org diabetes ni kalu tahap kronik, kaki die kene potong...so aku nak developkan satu program jaga dan check kaki supaya pesakit x mengalami nitemare hilang kaki kan..tapi satu mende formula pun aku x paham..aku dah kene belikan satu alat yg canggih manggih tuk check kaki harge berpuluh riban..again part marketing terserlah..haruslah mencari supplier dan hopefully aku berjaya..namun walaupun keje dah siap, aku msih menantikan Pakar Orthopedik cam Dr Sheikh Muzafar tu datang bantu aku..tanpa guidance cmne la aku nak wat case report kan..I need advisor sorang..masih menanti..khabarnye dr Hospital K. Trengganu..tapi blum dikenalkan lagi

Part jantung..aku harus berani bersore ngn Prof Sim, Cardiologist dr Sarawak..Last time PM aku yg tolong cakap on behalf..aku no idea..so skang Wilson suh aku continue..target 1500 pesakit dan make sure case report siap by september..yes yes dah siapkan tapi masih memerlukan advice dr Prof Sim tentang flow..aku xtau bile ms pesakit kene refer to cardiologist..aku xnak terlibat dalam any kes kematian OK disebabkan aku lmbat refer ke hape...oh no besarnye tanggungjawab aku...

OK..5 o'clock..aku x sabar nak balik..bile seteressss ubatnye adelah makan makanan sedap..SETUJU x???

xoxo
sephiiroth

Officially Busy

Tibe2 rs sakit kepala after having emergency meeting with my team..pagi2 bos besar kes H1N1..skang bos kecik lak busy ngn new company..so hanya tinggal aku, vats and shima officially handling CORFIS projek..dari admin, promoting, marketing,lab,finance..sume pun kene handle sendiri..another team members da start bercuti nak bersalin..adehhh..nape la same timing lak..

Wilson explained the details..aku hanye mendengar sambil membayangkan betapa stress aku lepas ni..handling Specialist pun x lepas lagi..asik2 tukar idea je..kejap A kejap B..adehhh sampai arini x siap2 lagi web application for Specialist..nak itu ini..kejap nak ikut US guideline kejap nak ikut UK pulak..

After this xde mase nak jadi baby manja2 wat keje sendiri je..blajar wat keje orang lain..admin work nmpak simple tapi bile berkaitan orang atasan trus hilang kesabaran dan mood pun bole down..tu belum msuk Finance part..nak gaduh ngn orang atas lagi..penat wat proposal berminggu kasi kat sana die bole x baca dan asik cakap dalam proses..realiti is proposal aku kat atas meje die..x tau ke aku x tido semata2 nak pikir ayat2 bombastik nak mintak duit beratus riban tuk projek aku..slumber badak je die boleh lewat2kan..

Bab marketing enjoy skit cos aku kene wat roadshow..so bole kuar ofis and jumpe orang..brief them pasal projek, invite them to join..best tapi penat cos asik bercakap je..dan perangai orang M'sia ni lain skit..cerewet..dah bagi FREE..nak minta mcm2 pulak..

OK..aku dah nmpak list keje yang menanti..so better start slow2 especially create the proposal for laboratory services..another ratus riban money to ask from THEM...better be prepared cos before this punye proposal dah kene reject..hampeh betul..nape x cakap awal2.........arghhhhh..

xoxo
sephiroth

Tired....

Sakit belakang cos of driving from Penang-KL still terasa, ditambah ngn 1st day PMS last monday menyebabkan sakit blakang lagi terasa..oh ya smlm ade healthcare screening roadshow di klinik Puchong..oh sangat la sengal blakang aku..

Mood nak datang keje punye la malas..mau je gi amik MC tapi tgk klinik penuh ngn patients especially suspected H1N1..plus working in HKL mmg la sangat besar kebarangkalian utk aku mendapat virus2 tersebut..walaupun disuntik antiviral skali pun, ttp di HKL blum tentu ur immune system can be functional really well..

Awal2 pagi, bos dah gathered everyone for Emergency Meeting..sebab ape??xkan sebab crisis politik keje kot??Ohh rupenye sume Dr kene trun padang for emergency H1N1..so bnyk la keje yang menanti kepada staff2 cm aku ni cos all the Drs kat ofis sume kene pindah to OPD (Out Patient Department)HKL..aku tgk HKL da kelam kabut..patients beribu-ribu serbu wad..Drs, Nurses pun x menang tangan nk layan..if the cases become chronic director2 besar pun kene trun padang..see how serious this matter..so be carefull and avoid any crowded places ye!

Smlm gi celebrate birthday si Nita..planning nk steamboat Flaming je..alih2 kat Tony Romas je..dan aku membelasah 1/2 BBQ Chicken sampai nak muntah..Lisa ngn Asian Salad, Syorre ngn Buffalo Bites and Nita ngn Marinated Chicken rosemary..the end Lisa ngn bergaya menghulurkan kredit kad..hahha..ni msti kes xde cash..

Balik ngn Syorre dah smpai kul 1130mlm..badan sgt la penat cos aku dari kul 4 ptg dah lpk Sunway Pyramid..abis keje awal trus blah..malas nk balik rumah cos of traffic jam, so decided to lepak alone in Sunway..xtau nak watpe..jalan2 tgk wayang alone with big POPCORN..hahaha..org pndang aku smcm je..whatever..abis gelak2 sorang..gi window shopping lak sambil tunggu si Lisa

Pencapaian this month-dapat beli one book..dimanakan cita2 aku yg kononnya 1 month 1 book..akhirnya beli juga..baca x baca blakang kira..yg penting ade buku..so tajuknya ialah THE DIFFERENCE MAKER by JOHN C MAXWELL..bagus2 sya..so motivational..from love story turn to pakar motivasi..yes aku harus memotivate kan diri..berusaha!!

xoxo
sephiiroth

Afraid Not Afraid

helooo..
For the first time I'm havin such a loonggg chat with Wilson, my Project Manager.I think it almost 3 hours I was sittin in front of him and confessed everythin that came out from my mind and heart.And he always be a good listener and counsellor listened to every single thing I said and tried to understand me..

Thank you Wilson..

I need time to think about ur offer..Like U said, Dun Give Up To Try and Dun Afraid!I think I have To start thinking whether I want to further my Study or Not in Order to be a Knowledgeable Person and can Be a part of ur new Company..

xoxo
sephiiroth